12.10.10

I wish to be a responsable grown-up

...but I often find myself feeling as a helpless child
comfused in this big, complicated world.
Feeling not clever enough
to handle the responsability it takes.

Important to me is not to be a burden to anyone -
and to give of what I have.
If I can keep handeling this,
I will feel responsable enough -
and peaceful.

My fright is money.
(I do never want to take loans)
My money may be all gone in a very short amount of time.
I have no plan for how to get (enough) new money.

Strangely, in the same time I feel peace
that it will be solved.
What have I done to make sure it will be?
(I have prayed and handed it over to God
So God: Please, TELL ME what I am to do !)
I´ld like to be responsable -
But how?????

2 comments:

christianne said...

This post made me want to be able to give you a hug. There is so much about your heart that I wish I knew, so much more of your story that is there for me to learn. I hope, over time, to learn more.

Olga said...

:)

Thanks Christianne!