Dreams and reality...

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I photographed the sons of this lovely girl today for my photoroject.
If you are here in Stockholm and would like to have me take your picture
I now have a PRISLISTA here.
(You may also click at the picture to view more of her and her sons)

I ENJOYED MYSELF LAST NIGHT READING ABOUT
HOW THE HOUSE BELOW IS BEING WELL CARED OF
BY SOFIA AND HER FAMILY! see here

Yes, Universe works in mysterious ways :-)

I enjoy waching - what many people call "the Universe" - acting.

I love to see how it makes things "right"!

I hear of these stories now and then

and it gives me a strong feeling of comfort.

Susan Tuttle has such a story at her blog today.
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As you may know, I have a strong longing to a place on earth

that I may call my home...

Two years ago, after writing of a place I had found,

that appealed to me,

I got the bolow letter in return.

No need to say it gave me the chills!

"Hi Olga, I found your blog yesterday when I was looking for some special information about the Glottra village.

It’s amazing, that "That House" you came across, was "My House" in Glottra in the province of Närke. Glottra is the demographic midpoint in Sweden according to the statistic authorities in Sweden and I can tell you it’s a wonderful place. I lived there with my family for ten years from 1972. Later on we moved to another house near Grisslehamn, northeast of Stockholm, close to the sea. But I didn’t want to sell the school until now after 35 years, because I was so attached to the place and the two school houses. I should like a family like yours take over, but I understand, this is not the right time. It is also a responsibility and you will have to devote much time for big houses like that. Like you I was staying with my family in a suburb outside Stockholm, before we moved to this old school. All the ten points in your wish list were true in our new home. You wrote: "I have learned that school buildings (and chapels) are known for being very well built :)" That is also true. When they built those houses, it took very long time and it was the pride of the village. The niece of Irja Browallius, the famous author, told us when we were going to move: "you will never more find a house like that". Sorry to say, she was true. As you know Irja Browallius was a teacher in the school from 1927-1937. Later on, during the summers, she stayed in a wonderful croft near Glottra called "Svalbygget" (The swallow nest), a house that got its grey patina because the lack of painting. “The swallow nest” is even more beautiful than the big schoolhouses and much more mysterious.

Conclusion: compared to the rather boring suburban life outside Stockholm I recommend you to later move to a nice house in the countryside not too far from a big city. You will be aware, not all things will be better. I can tell you about this another time, if you are interested. "

February 3, 2008 12:39 AM

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I still have no clue where life is leading me,

nor what will happen.

However, I am in Good hands.

I can not repeat this enough.

I am in Good hands!

This is fun!
Thanks to my project - I really get to practice
taking portraits of people these days!
(These girls I photographed this morning.)
And as a bonus I get to find out what are my streangths
and what are my weaknesses in the process.

My streangth is to see
and to work with the picture afterwords.

I need to get better at communicating.
I need to work at relaxing during the photosession
and making sure my models feel confortable and relaxed.
But I guess that the more practice
the more secure I will feel.
Or what do you say?

I asked my friend if she
wanted to take a walk with me in the fog.
Having felt very empty lately
I felt I had nothing special
that I wanted to talk about...
I detintely did not want to talk negative stuff.
She came at ten.
She listened to some of Hans new music.

The sun (wich hasn´t been seen much lately) greeted us as we steped outside!

The walk did me much good!
We saw the lark in the sky.
We walked into a garden up on a hill
where the intense beauty struck us both
and brought tears to our eyes.

I am happy to have this friend.
She is wise.
She loves the good and the beauty.
She shows everybody great respect.

Funny thing is that when there is chaos in my life
I long for her :-)
She has something of pease about her.
And I am so glad she lives within walkingdistance.
That is a luxery!

It didn´t matter I felt I had nothing special
I wanted to talk about.
We had not a negative conversation.
There was life!
I am blessed!

A BLESSED ONE am I, because...

I have the most caring and supporting man

I have access to a very beautiful city

I have never starved and I had food on the table today -- again!

I always sleep well at night

I have a Mother who is never giving up on me :-)

I have a camera+computer+Photoshop

I have my beautiful, lovely son

I have a project to work on

I have some people believing in me

I have one hundred pens in our home and never have to search for a pen

I have found this engaging blog

I have music in my house

I have a healthy body

I have freedom to speak

I have met so many lovely people through my internet journey

I am surrounded by lots of love!

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Note: I didn´t write that "I am happy because of..."

Having a lot of things doesn´t necesarily mean you are happy.

But after writing this list --

instead of searching in vain within myself

for smiles and happiness,

my prayer was that I would use my blessings

for good things.

And my focus changed a bit --

And I could feel some hope and meaning :-)

N E I G H B O U R S

I just love this working with pictures!

Espeacially the afterwork in Photoshop.

Today I took more pictures for my exhibition.

I meant to write alot about this.

But it has gotten late and I am tired.

So long!

/Olga

It is evening the next day now.

Noak and I are back in after a long walk.

Now he waches TV sitting with Hans in the sofa.

Here is one of the pictures

from this mornings photosession.

Go to this blog. Go emediately!

Love,
Olga

My little baby in the morning
wearing his new, white shues
ready to go out with daddy.

And in the evening
he drew me 96 pictures.
Yes - 96 pictures!!
He worked quietly in his room
very concentrated.

Sleep well my Friend!

How a day starts is important!
How it ends is too!
What is the last thing you think of at night?
What are your last things you see?
A visit at this webpage is perfect for me before sleep!

made in Holland

A personal belief

I have felt Susan Tutles truths pretty much sais it all.
I am all for her Truths!
I believe Susan is a good example of how to use and cherish a life!

But... I have not been quite content for my own part.
I have been carrying around this little treasured piece
that I have not understood how to handle -
where to place.
The little piece has not let go of me
it has kept nagging for my attention.
I have longed for getting a place for it.
Longed for pease.

I believe in the good.
I believe in something caring for me.
I believe in something carrying me
when I have no strength.
And I believe most of us do feel this - this loving power.

What more do I need to know??

I call what I believe in - God.
(Well, I call it him too... although that term is not important to me)

He is big as universe
He is eternal - with no end.
He just is!

He has reached out his arms.
I can rest in them safe as a little baby.

I believe in no end
allthough I know
that we will leave our bodies at one point
and we will leave time.

I have found the place for my little piece now!
It is my personal belief that my door to eternity
will be held open by Jesus Christ
as I pass through it saying "Thank you".
(My personal belief is that nothing else can open it)

There are a million things
I don´t understand
nor can figure out.
But it doesn´t matter anymore.
I won´t worry about it.

I´ll hold on to my personal belief in my "dooropener"
and will rest in that.

I ambrace all the beautiful, sparkling truths
and will leave all that comfuses me for now...

Russian Beauty delivered by Ilya Kaverznev

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Couldn´t recist this picture.
"Joyous reserrection" painted by the russian artist Ilya Kaverznev in 2005.
I say Happy easter to you!
I say happy birthday to Uschi who today is 48
and Happy birthday to H.C. Andersen who today is 250 years old.

To see the painting much closer, click on the little picture and then click again on the picture you see there!

Like a bud longing to bloom am I.
Longing to create without all these paralysing worries.
So much beauty inside that hurts and scream and long to get out into the blue sky.

I want to go to that place
where the sky is blue
where I can walk barefooted with my brushes.

I want to work.
I want to do my thing.
I want to drink beauty and deliver beauty.
I can not live here.

I´ld love to hold on to the dream of That House...